Getting Practical

As the weeks wind down toward our departure, I am seeing more and more of the practicalities involved in our transition. There are things that were once part of the distant landsape--details that I envisioned happening, but never considered how--that are now quickly approching as relevant needs. Steve and I need computers. There are other things we need too...a moving company, a way to transport our cars that won't make the drive to Durango, etc...but right now I'm thinking about computers. The CTK office in Durango will basically consist of whatever chair we find ourselves sitting in. The good news is that our ongoing expenses will pretty much be hot chocolate and coffee (depending on who you're talking to). On the other hand, we will need at least computers to be able to maintain communication as well as manage small groups and teaching. Now that we've come to this place, I'm really not sure how this is going to happen. We are looking to God to provide what we need, of course, but I'm very curious as to what that will look like. I am facing the reality that, in a couple months, some other guy is going to be sitting at this desk in front of this computer and my "palm pilot" will be what I say when I'm referring to writing things down on my hand with a ball point pen. This is not to say that I am afraid we will not get what we need to accomplish what we've been called to do--on the contrary, I am excited and look forward to it. I guess it's just interesting to be in this place where these things are no longer ideas...dreams...concepts, but realities. I like making plans. I love to dream up how things could or should be--infact, sometimes I think I'd rather plan and dream than make the plan or dream happen! Well, it's time to make things happen and implement the things God has shaped in my heart and mind for so many years up to now. Whew! What have we got ourselves into!!??!! In the timeless and eloquent words of Mike Yaconelli, "What a ride!"

I have never felt more alive than now--trusting God to put legs to a vision that is so pristine, so beautiful, so reckless and dangerous that you're almost afraid to actually live it out! I'm on the edge of my seat...I'm my brother, Tim, when he was six years old standing up in the theater in the middle of the movie because the story is too intense to sit down. I'm terrified that this will all fall apart and I will fail some of the most amazing people I've ever known and at the same instant the thought of what could be is too beautiful to pass up!

That's good stuff...I'll have to put that on my palm pilot!